I had fun once, It was awful

Wah sudah tahun 2014! Dan post terakhir di blog ini adalah dari tahun 2012! Waduh skip setahun.. berarti genap setahun juga ngasih  sedekah ke Hostingan. Eh tapi at least domainnya aku pakai sebagai alamat email. Ah anyway.. sudah lewat sebulan lebih untuk ritual resolusi apa tahun ini ya.
But let me slip a simple question :

“Ask yourself, Are you now the same man with you one year a go?”

Kalau jawabannya YES, berarti anda apes.
Kalau jawabannya NO, berarti masih ada lanjutannya, jadi lebih baik, apa lebih buruk.

Yang pastinya, untuk sekarang ini, saya mengangkat kepala, dan menjawab “NO”. I’m not the same man. It’s been only for like 10 month since I quit my nice and easy job and wandering into world of uncertainty. And it’s been one hell of a ride from there. Back there, 10 month ago, I was just your average local IT Guy. Lots of free time and enjoying the life of Magabut in the office. And how about now? I can not say that I’m better in career now, since I’ve burnt my ship of career security, but I have changed. I went places, I took responsibilities, I lead, and I solve problems. Many things that I couldn’t even think of in my previous state.

I’m stronger.

I’m ready to face 10x more danger than I used to be. Same apply to my family, My wife. I Couldn’t be more proud of her, with things that she’s been starting. We’re each paving our road to a better future, for our family.

Your current state is doesn’t matter, Doesn’t matter how big you are, or how small you are. The one you should think is “Are you Moving?” Or just carried away by the drift of time, towards death? But of course let me remind you, your are not your job. Many things are important as well. Maybe you start a family this year? Maybe you have a baby this year? Maybe you accomplish a degree this year? Maybe you learn a new language this year? and many things.. One definite step forward for every time is the one that matters.

I’m not a poetic man, and I don’t know if it has something to do with my writing above, but I found this one is super cool, Invictus, written by William Ernest Henley in 1875. Also check out the comic in 9gag. Some dude create tribute comic for Nelson Mandela based on this poem.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul